I couldn't calm my mind, It was spinning out of control. I was thinking about everything and nothing. I didn't know I was having a panic attack. My system ha...

I got to the start still not feeling very good. Something was not right and I was feeling queasy. In the team meeting before the race I was asked to cover mo...

In 2016 the municipality of Sencur was set to host a criterium, but a freak snow storm had it cancelled at the final hour. That was during my first trip to S...

"Oh shit! Did he just say it's a 20km hill, i thought it was 10!" I wanted to clarify, but I didn't want to ask for clarification. So I decided to wait till ...

A circuit race in the Lombardy region of Italy. It's unique in that it starts at 8.15pm. 21 laps of a 6km circuit with a 1km climb passing under a softly lit...

The final fight - Just 8km into the final stage things were not looking good for finishing the Tour if Slovenia. - A short (2km) climb started early the day....

Controlled Rage "When anxiety is not under control, when you've tried accepting it and then tried relaxation techniques, if it's still there, you can use con...

"...Bollé Adria Gazprom ooh Pascal Ackermann red socks green socks customised socks with names Controltech sound of wheels helicopter wind from helicopter mo...

"This is too hard, you can't do this" Negative chatter was off chops early in stage 2. Every pinch in the road, each stretch out of every corner and riding t...

Stage one of The Tour of Slovenia was littered with small climbs, narrow roads and technical descents. 5 days before - my eyes had been glued to my psycholog...

But, the heart of this blog is not about the win. It's selfish, it's about disappointment, my disappointment. Yeah, team success and the personal can be hard...

I NEVER THOUGHT MY 20's COULD BE SO..... Honestly - I couldn't be happier to leave them behind. At 19, I was plunging into the depths of mental illness. I co...

HUNGARY, Budapest "You do four laps of a circuit at the end, there is a short sharp 1km climb on the lap, it's narrow, cobbles down the centre and tiles on b...

My second race for the year was the Circuito del Porto, a one day flat race in Cremona, Lombardy region, Italy. The town itself, upon extensive Google resear...

I couldn’t hold her hand without fear reaching from within my soul and strangling me on the spot. Love, purpose, hope, all driven out like there were wolves ...

This photo was taken in 2010, I was 21. I’m standing with mum and dad. It’s been a year and a half since I first retired from cycling. I’ve just pulled out o...

Loss is hard, but life is not just found in joy, it’s found in the scope of human experience. It’s found in loss and pain as well as love and hope. It’s time...

It’s like being encircled by skyscrapers as they simultaneously crumble to the ground. What strength do you have to stop them, to avoid the dust filling your...

I stood in the dark as my world crumbled. I didn’t want to go inside and I didn’t want to stay outside. I wanted to drop to my knees and cry, but not a tear w...

The worst of depression has been the struggle to find a reason to live. Not only have l felt alone and afraid, but hope has seemed non-existent. In order for...